another Allah's grace

huaaaaang, long time no post and it is terrible, hueeee


hei, hei. you know ? yesterday, i joined a manga competition at labschool. as you know, drawing manga is my first time ever. maybe i like to draw bit that isn't manga at all. you must know where is the difference. okay, i'm not tell where is the difference. *back to topic* ya that was my first manga and i was soooo nervous. at first, maybe i felt lil' bit confident but after i finished mine, huaaa there were a different level with mine and others. they were really expert than me. after competition, there was a workshop from machiko manga school and she said to draw a good manga need a good technic too and it made me become down, i thought there weren't any chance to me to win, well i don't care. i really wanted to go home quickly since i no needed to stay there any longer but rain fell. after the rain stopped, i asked permission to go home but the teachers weren't allowed me, then i followed their order.

and finally they announced the winner and i became one of them. i got first place, ya Allah i never think that i'll got first place and i just can said alhamdulilah to Allah

nothing particular

aaa, somehow i easy to forget everything lately. that is little bit dangerous, for me. because i used to remember anything without write it on notebook, gwaaah, why ? that's why i should write everything carefully since now on this blog because i use this blog as my backup for my english's subject's task =="

well well, let's talk about something happier.
today's a birthday of my 'friend', you know what ? we gave her a little surprise. unfortunately it wasn't too fun because i want to made her cry but it's okay, i'll try it next year ehehe

oya, this afternoon i tried a new site that i've found, http://www.kokuban.in/ if you like to draw, try it ? it was fun altough you should use google translate...i meant, your dictionary *google translate useless after all*

this is my result after i tried kokuban

still, it easier to draw with pencil and a piece of paper, manual is number one than digital art ahahaha *it caused because i blind of tech*

forsaken duck's wish -written by me-

this song is made, written and created by me
my english teacher gives a homework to make a song
i bad about writing a story
this song inspired by song that i've play while i write this
here we go, my messy lyric~

***

Hey, Ms. Fairy
No one knows who I am
I am a forsaken duck
I lock myself from the outside
And the cold wind blows toward me
Makes my heart freeze

But...
I do have a dream that I dreamed every night
Become a beautiful swan
That make the other envy
Am I selfish ?

Hey,
If I'm swan everyone will see me, right ?
Everyone knows
No one cares about the poor one

Ms. Fairy,
I want you to grant my wish
Give me your spell
To turn me into swan
And to melt my frozen heart
I beg you

I don't want to dance in the silence again
This foot can't step alone

Ms. Fairy,
Realize ! I'm alone all this time
It's okay if I cursed by God
I'm being ungrateful, after all

awesomeness of rainy day

i ever said that i hate rainy day, and sunny day, didn't i ?
but today, i like rain. without waste your time i'll tell you what happened today

well after school, ucit said she wanted to go to somewhere but i didn't have money enough. then, deas, ceha, and lulung came and joint our conversation. ucit asked deas for go to some where but deas said thet she wanted to go home early today. ucit also asked ceha. ceha agreed but she hadn't money. well, we had a long-term-conversation without end until my *my ??* ion came. as usual, ucit screamed, suddenly. without thinking twice, ucit asked ion to deliver her go to lia and he agreed *no one ever expected he would agreed* maybe ucit little bit surprised and she asked my permission (?) of course i allowed her, who am i ? (i am spiderman ?) i just his fan, obviously ucit can do what she wants. okay i didn't care about this part..
as you know, his motorcycle stopped beside me huaaa, i could saw him clearly, huaaa he is really handsome.

in a middle way of went home, suddenly rain fell. i saw ucit and ion took a shelter. because i don't like to take a selther then i trough the rain. the other reason is, "how i can stand for a long time if he was there ??"

when i arrived at home, i opened facebook directly and at the same time ucit was online, maybe from facebook and she saih " sorry, nat. i didn't get any new information. and you kno what ! he asked where your house is ! and he also said'wow, nata trough the rain !'" was it mean he pay attention to meee~ ! ahaha.

little bit confident is okay, isn't it ? ahaha

pleasant wednesday

well well well, another bliss that Allah gave me. it came again-again-again *hei, why i said same words 3 times ? tsk. who cares?*

as i said before, for celebrate my school birthday, student council made some competition and today was fashion show. as usual, at first i wasn't interest at all after ucit sent me a message *again*, "nat, ion is in menza" without thinking twice, i ran to menza directly ahaha.
i arrived at menza but he just sat in front of menza and chatted with his friends. then without him around me, i saw that fashion show.

the first contestant was my friend, ceha. i guess she was awesome. i never expected because she looked so confident that time. then i supported ucit's class, jonah and ulul. after jonah showed, i waited for ulul's turn and she took a long time, aarrrggh.

jeng
jeng
jeng
jeng

then a miracle came. who guessed my ion would be the last one of boys who showed. ahaha it was suprised me, really. suddenly ucit screamed and without thinking i also followed her ahahaha. he really was funny and when he introduced himself, he acted like a foreigner, ahaha really silly

after i saw fashion show i went to axc, ucit said she wanted to say hello to taufik, and soon, soon, soon

when i arrived at home he was online, nooooo~
i asked him, why he can joint that contest and he answered that his homeroom teacher forced him. i guess he wasn't confident because he asked "it wasn't it, was it ?"
haaaah, as he knows, he is really great as he is. from his stupidity and another things, ahahaha

acoustic competition

for celebrate my birthday's school, the student council makes a several competition and today is acoustic competition. each class can send more than 1 group and they can sing whatever song they like. okay, i won't tell what their performance like but i'll tell my joyful day and it just happened then.

i'm happy if Allah SWT still loves me and today Allah gives me a gift again !
in the morning, i came late to school and i got my punisment but that punishment became wonderful because my super senior=ion also came late maybe he didn't notice if i was there too but it's fine. and soon i had my daily activities, and it's not important story

wawawa bell's rang and it's meant i can go home but i met ucit and she asked me to see an acoustic competition. at first, i wasn't interested at all but i still let her did whatever she want. suddenly, deas call me and she said my ion played marble. what the hell ! he looked like a child but it is best part of him that i like, being an idiot ! ahaha. jeng jeng jeng, then the competition begun

and then here we go, acoustic competition.... jreng jreng jreng, i didn't know what the song that the participant sang and i wasn't enjoy but suddenly~ ion came when ucit asked him why he came, he said he just want to see the participant's performance. hhuahuahuahau, i couldn't say a single word even, he sat in front of me but it had a distance. still, i got nervous. and suddenly (again !) he stood behind me huaaaaaaaa ! i mean... behind ucit for sure. and he did something stupid (like say unimportant words) that made me couldn't did anything and after that he moved and sat on the table behind me and he really close to me. huaaaa, Allah, i really grateful about that situation but still, i feel like i can't received this gift because its really wonderful gift. it's okay if i say that i really lucky isn't it ?

but i afraid if i'm bother and scare him, hueeee

TATU - CLOWNS

TATU - CLOWNS

Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?

All this weeping in the air
Who can tell where it will fall?
Through floating forests in the air
'Cross the rolling open sea

Blow a kiss, I run through air
Leave the past, find nowhere
Floating forests in the air
Clowns all around you

Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear

All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now

Can you see me now?
Can you see me now?

Can you see?
Can you see?
See me here in the air
Not holding on to anywhere
But holding on so beware
I have secrets I won't share

See me here pushing you
If I then deny I do
Contemplate or wish away
If I ask you not to stay

Clowns that only let you know
Where you let your senses go
Clowns all around you
It's a cross I need to bear

All this black and cruel despair
This is an emergency
Don't you hide your eyes from me
Open them and see me now